There are things that happen inside that don't have words yet. Here, I give them names.
"You don't need to understand more.
You need to decide better."
Miguel Díaz Zamacona · psychologist · author of The Architecture of Manipulation and The Mind Revealed
What's happening to you right now
If you've arrived with something specific, you don't have to read the whole place. Recognize yourself below, and start there.
"It's three in the morning and my mind won't stop."
The mind at night →
"I leave conversations feeling guilty, and I can't explain why."
The signs that don't look like signs →
"They make me doubt my memory. I save screenshots to prove I'm not crazy."
When they make you doubt your own memory →
"I know it hurts me. And still I can't leave."
Why you haven't left yet →
"I got out. And now I don't know who I am without it."
Who you are when there's no one left to fight →
"I'm surrounded by people and still feel alone."
No one to tell it to →
"If they knew what I'm really like, they'd leave."
What you show no one →
"My heart races and I feel something bad is about to happen."
The alarm that won't switch off →
"I blow up over anything, and then I feel terrible."
The anger you don't know where to put →
"There's a child I love who's gravely ill, and I feel helpless."
When a child you love is ill →
"I said yes again, when my whole body was saying no."
The no you've spent years not saying →
"I've been unable to decide for weeks, and it's eating me alive."
Deciding with the fear inside →
"Sunday evening turns to lead just thinking about tomorrow."
Sunday evenings →
"Someone I love is suffering, and I can't fix it."
Being there, without being able to fix it →
"Someone I love has died, and everyone expects me to be fine."
The empty chair →